Nothing lasts Forever

Pretty hurts. Beauty fades. But as humans, this won’t and can’t happen on our watch. Men are in constant battles. Everyone wants to not be alone. We are all running from loneliness. The world population as it stands now, there are more women than men. This causes problems. Affairs are getting more scandalous. Death is highly involved.

If I can’t have him, neither can you.

I used to love the mirror. I would look into it for hours. The reflection of me was beholding. I couldn’t stop. I became addicted. To my own beauty. I was crowning myself Queen. There was no beauty better than this. Or is there?

In primary school, there was this girl (won’t mention her name😂😂) who used to constantly remind me of how msupuu I was. I was dumbfounded often because when I looked at her, she was the picture of beauty. I blushed, I told her she was equally pretty if not prettier than I. She insisted mine outdid hers. I let her win. It was a compliment, nothing more to it.

One day, I made a mistake by going out. I was broken, all my confidence crushed. Suddenly my skin colour wasn’t light enough, my boobs weren’t the right size, my booty small, my tummy wasn’t flat enough, I was too short and appeared too tall for others. My face proportions weren’t right. Everything was wrong with each part of my body. My mirror had deceived me. I am not the fairest. Or am I?

The internet left me more confused. Everyone was curvy. They all had big boobs. A twerking ass(bouncy bounce), light skin coupled with even skin colour the entire body. They were shapely. Hourglass figures. They had no scars. They were literally sparkling. How could I be like these women?

Beauty as I have come to learn is very different to everyone. For some it’s the colour, others eyes, nails, ears, nose, feet, hair, personality, character, we could go on and on. The misconception here is that only women are to be beautiful. As a man you are either handsome or ugly. As simple as that. Deal with it. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. You might have come across that if you take CRE or an adent reader of the Bible. Was a woman the one being addressed in this context? Women however, have conformed themselves to this ‘beauty world’ that they now totally own it. So it’s true what they say about association.

The Black is beauty empire didn’t even have time to establish their camp site before they were overthrown by the Light skin dynasty. Rangi ya thao if you like. It all happened too quickly the blacks didn’t see it coming 😂😂(I’m dark before y’all attack me)

Si uniconnect na yule beshte yako light skin. Anakuanga model? 

The guy asking this darker than charcoal itself. He actually redefines the term dark you can never want to find another definition. Apparently chocolate babies have to be made. What do I know? (Shrugs)

Girls are all up in beauty shops and basic clinics trying to measure up to ‘beauty’ standards. The current ones. We all got to be trendy. Some are getting it right, others the completely disastrous opposite. I cannot possibly comprehend how a procedure can go haywire. It is a tragedy that women are more than ready to sacrifice themselves to please or bag a man. Yeah!

Our whole body has to be reconstructed for us to feel beautiful. Lip, nose, knee jobs. I can’t keep up anymore. The eyebrows replaced by several lines of eyepencil. The lashes enhanced by fakes to easily bat. Foundation, concealer, not a single spot should be seen. Butt and boob implants. You have to be well endowed to attract a man of worth. Hair covered up in human hair, why? I pity a girl I know personally. I was seeing her pictures and wondering to myself from when did that face acquire that ka-rangi. Then we met. Her face was the new ‘thang’ in town. Her other body parts were the same old dark her (she was in a dress, a mini, that’s how I know about her parts). Might be her strategy. Let’s not judge. One step at a time, right?

I don’t go out much anymore but everywhere I look screams: Resh, you got to upgrade!! Girl, the century is passing you by. I almost listen. Then I realize it’s not worth it. For one I love my eyebrows, my boobs are heaven, my skin colour isn’t too even but it’s light in all the right places. Curves? I was particularly pissed when some guy I met on social media asked me to send him a pic of me in jeans. He was sure I would be curvy. Till date he is awaiting to see those ‘hips’. Maybe after birth..what’s the rush? Though the competition is stiff, I’ll come out of it alive.

As a woman I totally get the need to look good and feel it but too much of everything is just that, TOO MUCH! Some standards are worth the struggle but changing your body parts doesn’t make you any better of a person. Cut the weight, lose the tummy yes. You can redefine yourself, you don’t have to change your body to get over your esteem issues. Not everyone can accept you the way you are. And you cannot be perfect. Those few flaws are totally perfect!

 

 

 

 

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8 thoughts on “Nothing lasts Forever

  1. Society will never be content with who we are as women… Best to just love yourself, shut out their comments and find a bunch of women that genuinely love you for who you are 😄

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